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Reisverslag arrived in Geneva
9 maart 2014
arrived in Geneva
For several days, even weeks, I have been really nervous. Tomorrow might be a very special day for me, when the annual report of the UN Special Rapporteur on Torture comes out, including a summary on individual complaints, and maybe my personal case will be in it (that is just a guess). Tomorrow I will know more. It’s a big thing for me, as for many years (about 20 years) I have been trying to get recognition for the harm done by psychiatry. Maybe it will happen tomorrow….
For today I had a good flight from Amsterdam to Geneva, and upon arrival I was picked up from the airport by Hege Orefellen. She showed me the way to the apartment that we (Tina, Hege and me) can use during our stay in Geneva. It is really great: we all have our own guestroom with our own toilet and shower! Thanks to a nice couple that offered us to use this place.
After arrival Hege and I had a good talk in the lovely sunshine on the balcony, and then we both went to do some work. After that we went into town to meet Yoshi and Tina and have dinner together (a nice pizza).
And then I was tired. I didn’t get a real sleep last night, because I was so restless and nervous and still packing my bag and sorting stuff out, I didn’t really have the mood to sleep, so I only laid down for an hour, not really sleeping. Anyway, by now I am really tired and not so restless and nervous as I was before. More numbed. I have been waiting for tomorrow, the day that I might get some justice, but maybe it’s just an ordinary Monday without any special news for me. I just don’t know. I’m having some peace now: The time is ticking, the answer will come to me soon, and there is nothing I can do about it at this point. I can only wait (and maybe I don’t want to think about it anymore, I am also a bit scared for getting no news, having to wait longer, feeling unimportant and forgotten, or maybe it will be bad news.. or maybe the report is delayed like last year…). I am empty from worrying about the possibilities. Should I care so much about it? Is it worth it?
I also have 3 lectures this week (2 in Geneva and 1 in Zagreb). These need my energy and I am trying to be focussed and prepare these well. But I do feel something inside so strong. Tomorrow-morning I might have an answer…
Now sleeeeeeeep :)
10 maart 2014 08:31 | Door: je moeder
Lieve meid, maak je toch niet zo druk! Natuurlijk ben je belangrijk en ik vergeet je nooit! En heel veel mensen met mij zullen je altijd een warm hart toedragen.
Ik houd van je en veel succes vandaag. Ik gedachten ben ik bij je!
10 maart 2014 08:57 | Door: Daniella van Rijbroek
Heel veel succes gewenst! Je kan het, ik heb jouw kracht gezien!! :-D